Something spurred the thought in my head today “does any tale have a truly happy ending?” I mean this in a life way, not like. Cinderella way. Are there any roads in live that have a happily ever after? Will any choice have no negative consequences? I doubt it.

I guess that thought has made me loop back round to the “am I good enough?” question. Once again, wondering if I’m actually good enough to make it as a legitimate actor in this cut-throat business. God I hope so. So much. I mean, I know everyone says “don’t put all your eggs in one basket” but what if you only have one basket in which to place your eggs? What if there’s nothing else in the whole world that I want to do, if that fails on me I don’t know what I’d do.

I hate these thoughts, they make me want to change paths, take the easy route through it all and hope to god it’s not too late. The rational saboteur within my mind. But I’m going to keep going, because I can never stop. And I will not give up before I’ve even tried.

And maybe I am being too ambitious, maybe I’m not good enough to make it. Maybe it will all fall out underneath me at the last hurdle. Maybe I can NEVER make it. But maybe, just maybe, there’s a place for me on the stage of the world sometime in the future. A dressing room waiting to have my name. A place in history for my name. Maybe…

Thanks for reading :)

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